sitting, waiting and wishing

Monday, August 31, 2009

kepadangpasiran ~

abes tu sekolah mana yg dpt no.1?' kakak.

'alaa sma* kjg tu..padahal kalau diikutkan tahap kepadangpasiran nye tu..kitorg lg padang pasir pe~~' adik.

'kepadangpasiran..??hahaha...'kakak dan semua.

12:11 PM

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grow up

i`m letting go
but why am i still holding back?
maybe `cause it isnt easy

so why am i not relieved?
when i should be
maybe `cause i was hopeful
and wishful still

but the thought
that given the chance
he would have the heart to do it
breaks it again..

is a hard face to wear
grow up, my dear heart.


10:20 AM

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meriah nye ~~

asalnye ari ni nak berbuka di rumah with home cooked food after that big feast yesterday.
tp kekyoku, yg home cooked nye only the lasagna and air nescafe susu kaw ~~

lps berjln 2-rounds kat pasar ramadhan, we actually managed to buy all kinds of food - yg believe it or not - costing more than the buffet we paid for 3 ppl yesterday!!!
deymmm...salah strategi ni.
waktu membeli sumer konfiden buleh mkn..
di tgn kiri & kanan kami;

otak2 pakcik tempe goreng
kuih akok makcik bedak sejuk
popia basah (1st try..)
murtabak pakcik comel
ayam ter-golek ~
ikan terubuk bakar
ayer tebu
nasi kerabu lauk solok n sotong
meehun sup takde sambal kicap ~

sampai rumah susun atas meja, dah jadi mcm separuh buffet kat kedai hmm..
selalu gi pasar ramadhan tak bernafsu sgt pon..takat beli otak2 & kuih2 utk berbuka. mungkin sbb penat bekerja, dan tak berape meriah berbuka sendiri.
lauk utk mkn nasi pon biase masak sendiri. but maybe sbb 2day ada gang budak 2 org tu, nafsu sgt meriah lah ~

seriously a lesson to be learned..

akhirnya, semua berbuka dgn lasagna buatan sendiri yg not bad rasenye -extra cream n cheese yg sgt bagus utk diet, dan kuih seketul dua pastu sumer dah kenyang..

ni dah tak terkira baper kali mentong dah ni..

weh..esok semua wajib bgn sahur!!!!

1:02 AM

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Sunday, August 30, 2009

Iftaar at Ikea buffet

1st day of the long merdeka weekend..
Instead of going back to BP, decided to stay - possibility of having to work, no mood to drive back and bla2~
so, i got 2 of my sisters coming over for the weekend instead.
plan was to meet up at SOGO area, jln2 shopping and so on..
but left home too late for that. and was worried abt traffic jam. so ended up going into Maju junction parking just to pick them up. i knew i was smart not to get into jln TAR. the traffic was CRAZY~

so drove straight to mutiara damansara later.
thought it`d be nice to treat the girls to some nice Iftaar. so we went to ikea.
the cafe was already closing down for ala carte patrons by the time we got there around 5pm ~
people were already gathering to line up for the entrance for the buffet, but seriously we missed the line.
ikea is one of my favourite place for window shopping - would end up buying sthg anway haha-

tp dgn perut yg dah mula berdondang sayang, we just walked around the store like zombies~

15mins later, came back to the cafe, found the line that were already quite long actually..
and here comes the suprise.
here they were, A*al and family lining up at the back. haha ~
so Iftaar for 3 turned out to be for 7~
which was quite nice and meriah.

meriah in both the food and feeling :-)
the long table was full of food - main dishes, fruits and kuih-muih.

star of the day?
definetely the chicken nuggets and that famous brown souce. yummy~
main dishes to go with the rice - asam pedas talapia, mutton curry, ayam percik, sayur kangkung, all sorts of ulaman, kerabu, ikan kering etc~

overall the buffet was very worth it and satisfying. taste was good. for rm15.60/person i would say by Iftaar buffet standard, it`s quite good.
the only downside is of course, the long que~~~
the que to enter the cafe and then the que to get the food.
seriously.. few of us actually break our fast while lining up for the food!!! whats good though is that they actually control the number of people in the cafe, so everyone gets their seats - unlike normal IKEA behaviour where finding a seat is always a challenge~

so, if u`re up to some nice buffet with family or friends - or both like what i did, be sure to be there as early as 5pm!!
ok 5.30 is fine laa, working days maybe around 6pm. u get these stickers after u pay, so its ok `cause u still get to leave the area and walk around after that-but somebody still have to stay securing the table la of course.
with the surau just around the corner, not a bad place at all for a little gathering.

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5:58 AM

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Saturday, August 29, 2009


I see your face in my mind
as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know
like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know
like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Without you, but I have to
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorryI'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

1:40 PM

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Friday, August 28, 2009


belum sempat 100% pulih dr yg lama, tiba2 hari ni mcm ada bayangan ribut taufan ke-2 akan melanda dlm sehari dua lg...

Sampai hati kah dia?
kenapa tidak?
mungkin itu yg terbaik
khatam segala cerita

benar aku janji akan bersedia
tp seawal ini?

bersediakah aku?

aku boleh lari
tp aku harus, dan boleh redah semua
boleh? mmg boleh...
cuma aku penat

utk mengutip semangat yg hilang

Ya Tuhan
beri aku kekuatan~
bukan utk menahan dugaan Mu itu
tp utk meredah bah selepas taufan...

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10:03 PM

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time will be..

something`s missing..
sadly know exactly what it is..

but maybe
time is the best heal
for a soul so fragile and broken

let it be
time will be.

12:14 AM

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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

sakit otak

dia dah start dah..
keja makin menggila
kalau bukan sbb skrg bulan puasa
mungkin dah berkampung bawak tilam bantal pegi opis...
hello ~ otak cuma satu, tangan cuma dua la weh!!!

work s*cks ~
i know, i should be grateful i have one.

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11:41 PM

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Monday, August 24, 2009

serik ~

tak cukup lagi
utk buat aku serik

degil mungkin
or simply just dont care


10:06 PM

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

1st Ramadhan - kitchen invasion ~

the mission went well.
main menu was nasi ayam - with grilled honey marinated chicken - thanks to air tgn a*al yg sgt sedap!!
then there was puding kastard jagung - hasil nukilan yours truly - thanks to resipi turun temurun mak ;-)
and not to forget the super-rich and sweet kek batik hasil godekan cik sa*ah ~
complimented with sirap bandung ala2 soda gembira waroeng penyet, and nescafe susu bibik yg sedap ~
harus semua tambah nasi 2-3 kali haha..
first day berbuka yg felt so warm and homely ;-)
will have to check back on my diet ~
hari ini?
ikutkan nak masuk opis, but its already 12pm and i`m still home. ermm if i clock in around 12.30, i can leave the office around 5pm which would be just nice for the bazaar ramadhan.
monren2 tu mmg buat rasa loya ~
monren = 問題連絡票/mondairenrakuhyou --> problem detection sheet issued by other depts. to our dept. for design problem solving purpose.

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11:04 AM

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Saturday, August 22, 2009

hang in there...

its the first day of Ramadhan.
and we're doing the Da*am's kitchen invasion today ~
its not even noon yet, so still hv a few more hours before we'd start the mission...
but anyway, bib*k is very happy today ;-) <-- will update later on the outcome of our mission.

in the meantime we'd probably just lazy around. maybe i shall kidnap one of a*al's books to read today. something deep and engagingly depressing is good. later will hit the supermarket for some materials.

..and just when everyone's having a good weekend celebrating Ramadhan, somebody's having a tough time and i had to resist myself from calling to give words of support.
It takes a little more than simple courage i guess.

meanwhile, hang in there dude~

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11:32 AM

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Friday, August 21, 2009

Salam Ramadhan

Ramadhan datang lagi~

Semoga Ramadhan kali ini membawa lebih rahmat, berkat dan kekuatan...

excited as always though it really looks like its going to be one very hectic fasting month.

Happy Fasting alls!!!


7:24 PM

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Tuesday, August 18, 2009


sesekali hadir lagi

dalam terpaksa
mengetuk dan mengutuk diri

tanda masih bernafas
tp indah


1:36 AM

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Saturday, August 15, 2009

-adek chomel-

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adek chomel~

dah besar nanti nak jadi ape?

ihh..comel sgt pipi tu

geram sampai lupa nak tanya nama adek chomel ~

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11:54 PM

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Friday, August 14, 2009


dont know if there`s such a word.
But seriously even before, weekends scare me sometimes.
And especially lately..remind me of things I shudnt be thinking..

an idle mind can really be a home for the devil ~
i guess..

work is beginning to pile up like a big mountain. so the honeymoon`s over. but thanks to that, my mind has little time to wander around and play jokes on me. and suddenly working on a weekend doesnt seem like a bad idea ~ need to start building up that momentum nway.

the week has been suprisingly better..i hv stopped crying over nothing, and listening to those songs are not a challenge anymore. guess the practical side of me has managed to take control over its emotional other half.

joined bestie am*l n family for their bbq on tuesday, as always they`re such great company. uncle da*am is back in the country for a while, and one of the sister at*kah is leaving for the States, so that was probably my last meeting with her before she left this weekend.
gonna miss u nyet2 hehehe..yeah i`m sure everybody will.

..and i`ve set a new record!! --> no TV for a week!! just too lazy to go get some new wire extension for the living room but had to give in to nurkasih today :-)
so now instead of the living room, the TV now lives in the room.

the drama, is very drama lah as always.

everyone`s saying that the visual is very nice - artistic and cantik. i totally agree. but i`m more in love with the script. and the story. its just so typical Khabir Batia - one setting, many stories. Love is obviously his favourite subject, exist in all of those characters.

adam dan nur.
kat dan adam.
sarah (= pempuan lawak) dan aidil
aidil dan nur, aidil dan adam
mak dan ayah
semuanya tentang kasih, sayang, cinta or whatever you call it. tak semuanya manis bergula.
menuntut pengorbanan. dan berubah-rubah mengikut hati manusia.
jelasnya, tak perlu sebab utk mencinta atau membenci. we just do or dont.

benarlah hanya satu cinta yg sejati.
bukan cinta sesama manusia.


11:47 PM

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Thursday, August 13, 2009

clown mask

"seriusnye muka dpn komputer ~" kak I yg sesat dlm cadroom.

"abeh tu..tak retila nak senyum sorg2 tgk skrin komputer ni...bukannye tgk benda best pon..kalau gambar balak hensem ke e-mail kelakar ke bleyla gelak..." loyar buruk yg terselit niat sarkastik ~

"hehehe..." (??!)

seriously..maybe i shud wear one of those clown mask to work ~

12:14 AM

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Monday, August 10, 2009

weekenders ~



Had a great weekend.
Thanks friends for letting me being crazy ~
And for making it a little bit easier.

10:48 PM

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Sunday, August 9, 2009

burned and scarred

The elusive platonic relationship can exist but not without the mine bombs here and there. You have to tread the field carefully. occasionally you'll stumble upon one or few bombs, it might hurt you or the other party, or they may not. If the friendship is strong, you'll survive but sometimes when it is not, you'll get burned and scarred.

...its a comment from a friend in my previous blog that i find very nicely said.
i`d like to keep this as my omamori ~

..and as a reminder not to get scarred & burned in the future ~

11:13 PM

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Saturday, August 8, 2009

awan biru

bila kita happy, satu dunia happy utk bila kita sedih, selalunya kita sedih sorg-sorg..

kata-kata oleh seseorg yg buat nafas jadi sesak sbb mmg tak kurang dr 100% kata-kata tu betul.

kata org tu lagi...

belajarlah utk menyayangi diri sendiri. baru satu dunia akan meyayangi diri kita..

senyum la selalu (walaupon mcm kerang busuk..) baru satu dunia akan dekat dgn kita...

ok maybe not in that exact words...but more or less the same.

tanpa sedar, mungkin aku mahal senyuman

bicara ku mungkin tak seringan teman

natural dah begitu, nak buat mcm mana?

arguement biasa, bila diri terasa dihentak.

tp mungkin benar...

senyum itu lebih dr menyejukkan org yg menerima

tp membersihkan hati yg memberi

tp senyum mestilah ikhlas dr hati kan...?

barulah jadi senyum yg happy

nak menjadi sesuatu yg bukan aku

tak mungkin semudah itu

utk belajar menyayangi diri sendiri, dan belajar senyum dari hati

mungkin mengambil masa

jadi usah lah ditekan

biarlah secara spontan

dan biar tanpa sedar

pergi awan kelabu

datang langit biru ~~

after so long, i`ve finally decided to stop writing at my old blog. the timing just seems right. beginning a new chapter.

hopefully this one will have more happy stories.

12:29 AM

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