sitting, waiting and wishing

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Praying for a dear friend..

Cerita yg sedikit sedih sejak seminggu lepas.
kawan kat jepun satu uni, sama batch..last tues tiba2 dpt tau mamat ni ade tumor in@near his brain, the size of a ping pong ball.
selain drpd demam x baik2..the main symptom yg menyebabkan doc buat mri and berjaya diagnose was the effect on his vision...the tumor was pressing on eyes nerves menyebabkan dia nye vision effected. Dia nampak bulat kecik je kat tgh - keliling hitam
sedih je dgr.

Went to visit immediately after aku dpt tau..stayed sampai petang sembang2 dgn family dia even tho ended up x dpt tgk dia pon. By the time cek balik dia x kuar2 lg dr ope room.

Based on updates from those yg visit dia lps tu..after first ope, he seemed ok. But only the first day. After that hldia mcm slight delusional, then sebab dia bangun and ripped of his ope plaster, ade liquid plak leaking.kena 2nd ope to repair.

And been getting updates every day..sadly he's still vr weak and under close monitoring. Still too soon to tell. Katanye x sumer org dia cam. Maybe vision dia punye issue...

Memandangkan skrg tgh off shift..plan nak gi esok. Ade org kata he's too weak.
xleh layan visitor...
Tp xpe ke kalau nak degil gi je tgk?
Bukan nak soh dia layan..nak visit tgk je kejap, at least x risau sgt dok imagine mcm2.
Mamat ni jenis prihatin..kalau org lain, mesti dia antara yg akan melawat.

Praying hard semoga dia sembuh sediakala..dan semoga family nya tabah dan kuat bagi  support all the way.

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Angan2 minah jenin.

Sindrom post-keja malam syndrome...dztttttt. mata terkebil kebil even tho siang td cuma tido 3jam sajerkk tau..
Jumpe member lepak2 makan kek sikret indalgen dan affogato *nyumm*kat aeon equine setelah aku membiarkan member tunggu sampai sejam di tpt asal perjanjian..ahakk janji pkl 12, tp aku tetido dr pkl 10-1. Hamekkau. Sedar2 tgk jam terus melompat bangun sampai bingung kepala cek..
Alhamdulillab masih ade rezeki nak jumpe..last2 di equine plak.

Around 4.45 aku drive member ke klia, member nak balik peghelih. Selamat sampai dah agaknye.
Sempat dinner siap skali before dia boarding.

Sambil kat epot tu, sempat cek berangan.
Cpt2 laaa cambodia trip. Tak sabo dah nak menyeberang sempadan ni. Seyes.
Lama lg plak bulan 12~
Yg hampeh nye td time nak balik bolehh cek lupe tpt parking. Erghhhhh nak nangis!
Hang parking block a tp pi carik kat blok b mmg sampai esok subuhpon x jumpe!
sebelum aku nangis kat situ seb baik jumpe..tstt.

Talking about merentas sempadan ade dua major planning utk 2014.
First one is solo trip to OZ. Most probably Melbourne sahaja...setelah dicongak2 rase mcm x mampu je nak pi sydney sekaligus.
tunggu la next trip kalau ade rezeki@dpt laki kayo. Hahah! Tak molek sungguh!

The second one is angan2 mat jenin a.k.a angan2 nak europe tripping. Solo? X kot.
X cukup berani. Takut sesat@kena pow@kena colek@kena rompak dan yg sama waktu dgnnya...

Tp lately tetiba ade perkembangan plak anganw yg dah simpan lama ni..asalnye ade somebody letak post cr gang backpacking europe kat backpackers group kat fb..
saje2 la komen. A week later - now dah ade satu grp whatsapp of about 10 people, they even met yesterdag for the so called ice breaking session.
cek of cos x join. Kije!
Dah dua minggu keja sampai ke ahad. Bermakne sudah dua minggu cek dok tidok je wiken siang.. je td check email bebudak ni sent. Ade m.o.m woo!
kagum! Ade pembahagian tugas towards the planned trip.
Selain tugas basic yg sumer org dpt that is monitoring flight ticks for specific airlines..cek dilantik sebagai photographer...apekah?tau plak aku photography freak!  :)

Cek rase depa ni pon mcm cek x cukup pon kalu setahun planning Mcm ni ade la harapan tu. Harapan ade ke...err..
but we all need a little motivation right?
Ok gak ni..i'll play along. Bulan2 set aside siap2...kalau ade rezeki, pegi ler. xde rezeki, ade extra saving.

Byknye nak kena save for traveling!
tak masuk lg plan nak repeat perhentian dlm awal oct ni....dan plan nak pi diving kat mabul or@and siam next year...

Nampak gaye tpaksela cek cari part time job memandangkan adalah tidak bertamadun utk mengharapkan laki kayo.

P/s: kena rajin2 standby masuk keja ganti org laa lps ni. Masyuk gak drpd dok ngangaaa jek.

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Thursday, September 19, 2013


First time stress sejak masuk keja baru..waaaaaaaa...hopefully its temporary la tho. We're stealing clients from the team in the  philipine cos they're shutting down the team, but the transition process is so short notice that we dont have much time to practice.
Tup tup this week dah kena test supporting those new accounts sambil reverse-shadowing with the old team. Meaning kita biat kena share screen dgn depa, depa dok tgk and komen. Team tu plak mostly native japanese yg ossan2 la i suspect sbb siap leh bebel2 marah2 waaaaa. Tensen den.
Paling x suka bila tatau nak buat keja.

Mode bersabar sehingga pandai.

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Tuesday, September 17, 2013


I have this itchiness of planning for a solo trip overseas sometime next year..i did japan last year, although not exactly 'single' the entire trip, i did depart and came back alone  :)
It was a great success and i really enjoyed it!
it was really fun - even the days when i was actually travelling alone.

Single travelling is doable - and for me, it starts by picking the right place. Somewhere that isnt weird to be seen walking about alone. Somewhere that has soooo much to offer, so much colors, culture or landscape that i dont need another person to make it fun.
and more importantly it needs to be  somewhere thats safe!
honestly if i were a guy  i probably wuf have taken the more south east asia aproach - but obviously that is not the case and a lot of places here are not convincing enough for me.
I have to find travelling mates for those.

So been thinking a lotttt the past few weeks esp.after visiting the matta fair.
Europe is sthg i've been wanting to do..but owh it cost so much.
I needed somewhere that i can reach with cheaper flights but equally interesting..or least nearly.
N.zealand was next for it's great nature and landscape. But flights are super darn expensive i might as well reconsider europe - and then i'm back to square one heh!

So next...what about australia? is not too tropical which is what i'm looking for,very colorful and has some of the most interesting landscapes as well. Destinations in australia are of a great variety, good food and i think pretty safe for a single female traveler.
Owh and flights are not that expensive. Maybe just a bit more expensive than tokyo.

So i started googling about and i thought, after Gold Coast that i visited 9years ago *or was it 10?* Melbourne sounds like another destination i will love!
Vibrant city, excellent public transport system, big city, reachable countyside and famous nature landscapes. Great for a single getaway and photography too.
Foudd this great vip backpackers tour website that i could book just in case i find it not practical or too messy to plan everything by myself. Can maybe book a few days tours for destinations that require travelling a bit..surveyed the rates and although not cheap, they're ok la.  I can save the city exploring for myself to plan. Just like i did in tokyo the last time.
Wooho.this is exciting!

Its actually beginning to look really possible and i am just itchy to book a flight already.
But holding myself a bit. Bettef wait for a good deal while maybe doing more research. Maybe on seasons, weather and timing.
But seriously..gotta make it happen.

It would be great to have a partner for this kind of travelling..and i envy people who have. But..asking people to come along on a trip especially when its not that cheap is tricky. Especially for a stubborn traveler like me who doesnt like compromising on the placee i want to see. Heh.
I am done waiting to see the world just because i cant find someone to tag along.
Also done worying that i may come across as weird by going on trips alone.
They are not the ones paying anyway  :)

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Sunday, September 15, 2013

Standby hari Malaysia!

Ok. Tak menyesal masuk standby di malam cuti umum ni.

Weweweeeeeeeeee....Keja oii!

8:15 PM

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My first crush got married.


Some guys were referring to a wedding happening yesterday, and i was just curious who's.
Kinda weird as i havent heard about anyone getting married this weekend.
Seems like no girls from the batch were attending.
And out of curiosity, i clicked on an album uploaded by one of the guys....

Amekkaw..gedebuk. was that i guy i used to like back in the days of prep school in Um.
Tst..looking just like used to. Havent changed a bit.

Had a good laugh thinking about those old days..but weirdly felt a bit down.


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Thursday, September 12, 2013

Imaginasi dan realiti.

Lately rase lagi mudah memerhatikan sesorang yg aku tak kenal dan tak akan kenal daripada menyusahkan diri berkenalan dan berkawan hanya untuk jatuh dan akhirnya sakit hati

Lebih senang melayan perasaan *waku-waku* ni walau tak nampak sudahnya, perasaan berbunga-bunga melayan imaginasi.
Lebih indah daripada menonggak realiti yang kejam, mengharap bulan dan bintang yang jelasnya tak akan jatuh ke riba.

Ignorance is bliss.
#I dont need to know who he is, what his name is, whether he's married or single..enough just to catch a glimpse once in a while and wonder about the mystery#


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