Meredith: There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.
If this is love
then love is easy
Its the easiest thing to do
If this is love
then love completes me
As i feel like i've been missing you..
If this is love
its the easiest thing to do.
Mode stress..
berkira kira nak beli keta baru, mode gatal la sebenarnye
Tapi, nak beli rumah kang berkurang pulak keupayaan membayar bulan2 kalu ade loan keta baru, komfemla keta bukan rm545 mcm skrg :(
Dah tu tinggal lg 2 tahun je nak bayo.
Dahla mmg sedia ade stress nak beli umah x lepas2..tgk harga rumah terus give up nak tgk.
sumer 350k ke atas area2 sini.
kalau bleh kuar epf terus utk bayo d.p xpe la jugak tp last2 kena sign surat dulu br leh kuar epf gok, which means kena cekau gakla d.p. mane nak cekau wei.
Bukannye nak rumah beso2 pon, not even dreaming nak cr landed. Apartment pon ok.
Dilema org bujang..nak beli rumah 250k sesuai nak duduk sorg dan sesuai dgn kemampuan satu slip mmg xdok lah.
Demm you developers skrg sumer sibuk buat rumah canggih2 besar2.
Its amazing how I got my prayers answered in more than one way..
As much as i love gathering with my close family, hari raya also means meeting distant relatives.
the uncles, aunties and grannies.
And each year, at least once there would be that awkward moment when i got asked 'that' question.
Its just a few seconds that pass in no time, but still..i despise it more each year.
So yes, i am guilty of secretly wishing to skip that routine. But for our family that never miss going around the the state visiting all levels of relatives esp.on my mother's side, escaping is quite impossible, so I just adapted and learned to feel numb.
Last year was the year I struggled to get a new job - to start a new career. Mainly for my peace of mind, and also for better career opportunities.
In fact I had a series of interview during Ramadhan last year and almost joined that company after hari raya, had it not been a deal gone bad.
And a year later, here I am working on the eve of Syawal 1st, at this new job I just started 3 months ++ ago.
Sacrificing days of raya break like what I always had at my previous job is the price to pay for a somewhat calmer and more sensible job.
The extra pay is simply just the icing on the cake.
It will be a long 4 days and nights.
But at least, i wont get asked that question anymore! Alhamdulillah!
Selamat hari raya, maaf zahir & batin!