U are so demm predictable.
As always running away at any possibily of showing that we're passed it.
Why cant u act or at least pretend to be like matured grown up gentleman?

Annoyed but sad at the same time.

The long raya break is coming to its end tomorrow..
As always, i so drag going back. Although its becoming a bit lemau here at home..hehehe.

This 'dragging' feeling is a bit complicated this time..going back to the office on monday means everything is back to bussiness. Masa bertenang is over..if things remain as i left them before the break, i will get the letter soon. And everything will be real. And there will be no turning back.

I will start everything new..meeting ppl, making friends, making good friends, building that social circle again. Things i'm not really good at.,
Not to mention feeling insecure abt the new challenges waiting. But thats why i went with it in the first place..so that i believe i'll figure out somehow, in time.

But mainly, i will be leaving so many ppl close at heart..maybe a few more special than the rest.
Those special ppl who made things seem ok when they're not, ppl that made me happy just by being around. Good friends. Ok maybe i'm just going away a couple hundred miles and we cud keep in touch..but still  :(

but keeping in touch is not always easy, not with certain ppl. for some its difficult to find the excuse to keep them in the contact list. And it sucks when i'm not ready to let this person go yet. Though i did say that i have.
And apart from being colleagues that we are now, what other excuses wud i have then when we aren't anymore?
And will it finally end with us going on the silent game?

I do believe that with every deed comes consequences.
And that hijrah requires sacrifice.
And these consequences is breaking me down now.

I took a day off yesterday and drove to alor gajah again for the 2nd interview. App. Was at 4pm but i got there quite early around 2.50pm..heh.
Quite nervous..
The last time i was told that 2nd interview panel will have 'dato' ..one of their big bosses.
..and so yesterday i reported to the lobby 10mins b4 4pm and waited the longest 20 minutes. Haha..
Sekali came out this hr dude "hari ni dgn dato' tau..'
Oh maiii..sejuk tgn.
Masuk2..ade 3 org. The hr dude, the manager yg during 1st interview came up with the idea utk engineer position instead of translator then the big boss. Balik tu gugel br tau sape pakcik tu.

anyway..this time around manager tu senyap jekkk jd tukang dgr. mmg mainly dato tu yg bertanya dan berckp..suprisingly dia tak drill sgt pon, tp ade la sikit dia tanye 'what exactly do u do in p2?'
ade jugak soklan2 trap mcm2 ' 6 years..no thought of going other places before? so why now, why here?'
hoho..i gave my closest answer to the truth.
Rule of thumb of interviews, never talk bad about your current employer!

yg awkwardnye at the end he mentioned that he personally knows one of our GM - current dept. nye GM. am guessing maybe diorg penah keja skali dulu2..org automotive ni pusing2 tang tu je gak.

in the end bila aku tanye how long will it take for the results to come out..he said ' normally 2 weeks but ur case ni complicated sket, lets give it  a month'. ayohh.

actually the thing is that..he didnt quite like the idea of the engineer position the manager proposed - spec engineer post. he said that i'll be a bit overqualified for it. and he shared an interesting info that they are setting up an R&D ctr here in malaysia, to be a ctr for the region in addition to the one in Thai, as they are planning to increase their localized content. so i may come in more relevant towards that area.
interesting news..but then yg itu i feel mcm ngeri la pulak, mcm underqualified pon ade. tu yg complicated agaknye, i'm sitting smwhere in between 2 posts - satu cam over satu lagi cam underqualified.

papepon i'm actually glad that this will take a while..mental x ready nak dpt results lagi  :-)
ade org tanye will i go if i got the offer?
seriously at the moment i can only say ' i'll decide then if it comes to that. right now it's more of knowing where i stand'

Got a call on thursday..they want me to come for a 2nd interview.
Tuesday evening 5pm!

Ok first of all..why la kena ade 2nd interview? Kena saspen2 lg..
Secondly...5pm?!!
Zzz..
I suspect its some big bosses this time..tu yg petang baru available.
*panic!!*

Mayotteru nak amek half day off je ke or full day.
Cuti x byk nak jimat konon..
Tp kinda need time to be mentally prepared it'd be nice to have the whole morning off too.
Maybe can go to the bank tukar duit raya ke ape..

Dari last week plan nak buat karipao pusjng for buka...smlm br berjaya heje. Tu pon tak jd utk berbuka sbb x sempat. End up makan selps terawikh@moreh time la kiranye...
Puas hati. Goreng just enuff to eat. Then the rest went into the freezer, 1st try to freeze kueh. Kalau menjadi next time bleh buat lg.

P/s;cubaan nak upload gamba gagal la plak....tsk.