new moon...

i am kinda glad...
the pain is the only sign he was real~

ok, still not crazy about it yet
but i think its time i start reading the twillight saga hahaha

useful infos

...mlm isnin yg normal dan boring. went out for dinner with new housemates for the first time. turned out, they`re quite fun haha~

so i was just browsing for infos while waiting for the laundry to be done...and found a few i was looking for.

not ready to do just anything yet. but its good to know that it is really possible ;-)

http://www.sarakids.com/blog/?p=342

http://www.ibufamily.org/comments/com63.html

people might think this is another one of my emotional tantrums, but believe me these thoughts had not generated overnight. and i am actually quite at peace with myself.

everything has to start somewhere.

so while some things are totally out of my control, i believe now that i shud take control of what i can and not let fate decides everything.

i dont always know what i want, normally i`m more clear of what i dont.

but this is one of those exceptions.

missing sunlight

selamat pengantin baru, nazirah&bashir

lovely farhana, see u soon darling~

Alhamdulillah..back from the trip to kelantan.


believe it or not it was raining all the way - from kl to kelantan, then throughout the wedding day and all the way to sunday from kelantan to somewhere in Perak...rasanye dah dkt masuk selangor baru it stopped.


terasa sgt rindukan matahari~

will story later on the wedding and the trip itself later....so tired loh.
but i`m glad i went.
not really because of the job.
but because i met some wonderful people.

Thanks ajim and sue for hosting me and showing us around kota bharu.
and for introducing me to ur kids-lovely farhana and farhan.
serious, its amazing how fast these kids bond with someone they only met for a day.

when we were saying goodbyes and salam2 before we left, farhana actually pulled me to her and when i got down to her level, she kissed me on the cheeks - twice, right and left.



how can i not be charmed with such suprise?

a.d.o.p.t.i.n.g

rasenye la kan...
baper byk surat - ok maybe not literally surat lah - nak kena hantar sblm ada ppl yg wud finally take me seriously?
the honest truth is, the chemistry is gone.seriously...
my faith has died...after 3 years and 7months, one have to move on.
terlalu byk sbb utk tidak meneruskan what i`ve started.
racun yg satu tu, lebih2 lagi menmbah sebab - musabab.
the only thing i`m enjoying here now is the friendships, and companionships. tu pon only of some.
rindu di masa akan datang, pastinya bukan utk semuanya.

yes i can be very cold if i want to.

if i can get a new one, yg fix hours - occasional O.T is fine, but not too much- and better $$$, maybe what`s been on my mind these last few months is actually possible.

so the Q is, if money`s not a problem, and one cud come back from work on time and hv the weekends off, is it possible for her to care for another soul?
with the d/line she sets herself getting nearer, this seems like a more sensible idea than actually finding a partner.
she just wants a bigger responsible in life for it to mean more.

and no, she`s not thinking about cats or hamsters.

me and the wall~

takmau cakap byk..

i just love thi pic!

courtesy to alan yg sentiasa kontrol cool~~

nomad

kerja dah mula menampakkan taring yg hilang sejak beberapa minggu lalu.
hari ni dah start stayback, settlekan hutang yg tertunggak, bahana cuti sehari..mmg betul kerja mmg tak akan habis~

masih lg jadi nomad. rumah tak settle lagi. and for the first time sejak hitori gurashi kat sini, rase tak selamat kat rumah tu...
kebetulan na* tinggal 2 weeks lg nak kawen...the timing seems perfect. hari ni dah mula bicara sket2 ngan na* and d*t pasal nak move in..they seem ok. cuma belom tau ape feedback lg sorg ahli rumah.
me personally,tak pasti sama ade dah ready nak berhousemate. but secara normalnye, insyaAllah everything will be ok..
masa yg baik utk mengubah angin dan cara hidup.
maybe i am ready to open up.

asalnye nak tulis entry ni dlm bahasa melayu penuh..tp baru separuh jln dah pelik bunyinye...

weird kah?

-farah yg pernah terer tulis karangan bahasa melayu.~

re-charged

Beautiful places, cool travelling buddies and great food always make a good travelling experience for me. exactly the case for my jln2 around melaka over the weekend.
Tho at times i did wish i had my girlfriends coming along for those great moments ( and pillow talks!!), the melaka trip this time around was quite fun. maybe coz we had the same objectives - food, places and great photo moments~

i was smart to bring along my snickers. apart from driving around ( being lost most of the time)...we did a lot of walking on the streets. melaka at nite especially around banda hilir was very nice. we each had our cameras and tripods along so grabbed that chance to try some low light photography. and daytime around the town and around felt very rewarding and hot!!! we all got some sunburn as souveniers this time~

my 50mm is acting a bit weird arghhh so i played mostly with my ultra wide baby - great for landscapes and weird distorted potraits! this time i made sure that we had some moments captured with US in the photos! inspired by anna rine self potrait style haha~
and since there were only 3 of us its not that difficult laa ;-)

feet are aching at the moment from all the walking but i feel re-charged for the next few months to come.
thanks guys, shud do it again sometime ~