Sedih dan sensitif.
Ade benda kalau dah teringin sgt tp sendiri x mampu nak buat or dptkan mmg cpt je mengundang sebak bile org lain buat@dapat..
Not talking abt benda2 besar mcm kawen ke dpt baby ke, yg tu smhow ok je to genuinely share the excitement.
But simple random things that i just cant do on my own..simply awkward to do alone or maybe not brave enuff or just simply scared to do.
Apparantly my courage has its limit.
I know there are pros n cons of being single or married. I love my freedom and all. But i envy ppl who go home everyday to have the company of loved ones. Kids especially.
More and more..being single and not having anyone who care enuff abt u to walk with u when u want to do the one thing that u're scared of but just long to do..just sucks.
As always, i'm always the big sister, and the ctr pillar to lean on.
I pose a smile each time tho i'm lousy at it just so ppl wont say i'm unfriendly.
No one really notice that this pillar is smtimes falling.