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Sunday, February 12, 2012

delayed entry - 30th birthday.


29th january 2012 came in mixed feeling.
genap usia 30 tahun, terasa begitu cepat masa berlalu, seolah-olah baru semalam abes SPM, masuk AAJ, fly gi Jepun, 4 years of japan life the grad..start keja..and so on.
its a mixed of feelings especially this year, as i had put a target to 'settle down' at the age of 30 previously.
and it actually seem far fetched even now..
with the stress at work, and these complicated mixed feelings, towards the weekend i did not actually make any plans. tho so sgt tempted to make plans. sthg happened at work yg buat emosi sedikit terganggu pulak.

tp sebelum midnight aku niat awal2, pagi2 bday tu nak pegi kelas umrah kat andalusia kg pandan, second time nak pegi sbb rase mcm yg first time dulu x baper clear.
when the first 'happy bday' wish came in malam tu, barulah surreal that i was turning 30! huhu..
it was a bit weird..biler diingatkan for the past 3 years, ade someone yg selalu jadik the first person to wish. and itulah selalu buat aku senyum awal2 pukul 12 tgh malam tu haha.
but this year its so obvious that he's making a statement, sending me a 'bigger' message. no wish at all, not at 12am, not later.  xpelah, its for the best.

esoknye berjaya nbgn dan siap2 awal, sampai kg pandan tepat pukul 9 for the kelas.
solo jek ari tu, Alhamdulillah rasa mcm clear sket hari tu punye talk. straight forward jek ustaz tu punye cerita.

habis kelas around 1.30pm, went to jalan TAR, mencari tudung, serkop, kasut etc. Naseb baek SOGO amazingly x ramai org so brjaya akhirnye beli kasut!
lunch sesorg jek la kat sogo food court. hmm.. setiap kali ade org mesej ke wish bday, or tanye tgh buat ape aku sebak. usaha yg termampu lah tu, keluar mengisi masa pagi dgn kelas umrah, and cubaan utk 'getting busy' lps tu dgn bershopping brg2 keperluan. nak mengajak kawan2 last minute x berapa sesuai dah, sume with commitments, waktu tu nyesal tak wat plan awal2.

Tp luckily somehow last2 minute to ade jugak org ajak meet up for tea and then dinner. if not, mmg sampai ke malam la solo jek.
tea@secret recipe OU with friends@adik2 si husband & wife P&A, thanx for the cheesecake. sedap jugak ciskek baru caramel tuh!
jln2 kejap, then split up and went to meet bestie, Amal+2 for dinner plak.
had dinner at Delicious. nice2. main dishes we ordered were good, and the desserts were superb!
mmg cheesecake overload lah hari tuh!

so thats how i spent the day. randomly and spontaneously.
sakit2 dada sebenarnye sepanjang hari..silently wishing that it wudnt be so spontaneous next year.
My prayers that Allah grants my biggest wish this year, that i'd wake up in the morning of 29th jan 2013 with a big-big smile on my face, and no more mixed feelings.

*the weekend after that, celebrated plak bday with bestie, cikyam and family since ayra's bday is on the 28th jan :p
delayed celebration after her whole family went down with fever the bday weekend haha.
had a good time spending the few hours having bbq and very pretty rainbow cake made by yam :p


* got pictured to post but smhow the new blogger board ni mcm leceh aaaa..so maybe later.


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